So, I'm bisexual, have been since I was in the womb. I'm lucky to have such an accepting family. I wish I could say the same for my Cedes. But that's okay, because this post is going to be dedicated to the family, it's dedicated to us.
This little love at first start begins my second semester of freshmen year of 2011. I had became friends with a Sophomore the semester before and she introduced me to her girlfriend; Mercedes. It's twisted with a twinge of guilt in the mix, but I fell head over heels for her on site. Not that I can let poor ol' Manda know that. I didn't get to know her very well until our favorite sport MY sophomore year;softball! Hey batter batter hey!
I absolutely suck at it and Cedes had pity on me and tried her best to help me survive open field. Everyday we came closer and closer, and the love for her continued to grow and grow. She was oblivious because A.) I didn't let her know how I felt and NO ONE knew except my best friend at the time and B.) I was helping her get through the Sierra phase. Cedes and Manda broke up due to both of their parents, then this lesbian who was very out there and she "fell" for my Cedes. I always put the duty of being her best friend first, so I listened to about her new love and tried to help her get over Manda at the same time, man that shit was exhausted now that i think about it,
But, the love of my eye needed me, and that's all that mattered.
Now would be a good time to mention her family is LDS, and very strictly so. So, you can see why they intervened with Manda, and to make things worse, so was Sierra in some odd way. Anyways, this chick was using Cedes as a rebound and so Cedes and I would talk it through notes (we've filled 5 notebooks and currently working on our 6th). Head over heels Cedes couldn't let her go.
So her senior year rolls around and a frienemy and I decided it was time to tell her even though I was dating someone at the time (I knew she was cheating on me, so I was like fuck it). Our friend Ryan, threw cake in her face and so i took that as an opportunity to tell her in the bathroom. And I flat out told her and all she said was, "okay." Embarrassed as fuck, I leave as fast as I could and she follows behind very confused.. Come to find out, she was on autopilot and just said "Okay" to make it look like she was paying attention to me. Bitch.
So, the beginning of my senior year, she had to drop out of college because she was unhappy with pretending to have her parents to continue paying everything so Twin and I drove her back home to where she belonged. Well, I had told Twin that I was in love with her best friend and I asked Cedes to Homecoming with me so I didn't go alone. She was absolutely clueless until Twin's boyfriend told her. So, homecoming became our date and we were 2 nervous fucks that it was cute and pathetic. The day after homecoming on November 3 during the sunset in our town, she asked me out in the middle of the crosswalk holding my hand. And the rest is kinda a wonderful story. She came back to college with me, and with our 2 year around the corner, she is still my best friend and soooooooo freakin' amazing. I couldn't imagine anyone else I could be with that could make me so purposeful in this life. She is and forever will be my handsomely beautiful Angel, and I couldn't ask for anyone better than she. My never ending blackhole :)
Quick funny side-story: Well, her Senior year she had planned to move out, but she needed a job, she even gave up softball to prepare herself for that transition. Unfortunately, it didn't fall through till a year later, but heres the story.
Because she was doing a job interviews constantly that year, she had to dress the part so she could go straight from school. I saw this girl wearin beige pants walking from a distance and I swear I became Tony the Tiger cause her ass looked greeeeeeaaaaaat! Come to find out, it was Cedes because she turned her head slightly. Fuck, couldn't help thinking it. I told her later that day, and till this day she hasnt let me live it down. You think that wouldve been her hint. Nope.
That's all folks!
~B.K.
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